hopeless wanderer

27

It’s birthday month and so far so good :). First I am grateful that for the whole month of March I reached the 7 figure mark for my sales… Grateful beyond words indeed :) what more can I ask for? Second… I already went north of Luzon… From Manila all the way up to La Union, though I didn’t get to surf coz there were no swellings the entire time that we were there, but still one of the best trips… Road trips are indeed the best! And by the way… Hundred Islands is a check in my list :D though I forgot one thing… I forgot to count if there are really a hundred of those islands out there… Teehee :D

April Fools day, first day of my birthday month, I was with a bunch of friends from high school, we went to the Sunday Organic Market in Eton Centris in QC and after lunch planned to transfer to TriNoma but then everyone thought its best to head out to Tagaytay rather than spending another day in the mall… Then all of a sudden along the way one of us just thought of going to Intramuros, which I haven’t been to and some of us haven’t been to as well… We walked down the streets and around Intramuros, and it’s like time stood still there, with the cobblestoned streets, old houses, gates/doors with intricate details, Capiz windows and all that… I felt that we were being transported to the Spanish era… It was a really nice experience walking around that walled city of Intramuros… And I really don’t mind going back there again and again :) after Intramuros we headed out to Fort Santiago… And all I can say that that was the most worth it 75 bucks entrance fee that I paid in my entire life :) haha… Pardon my kababawan pero mura lang talaga ako :D hahaha! After our historical tour, went to Ayala Triangle, had dinner at Banaple and went our separate ways… It was the best Sunday in my entire stay here in Manila, spur of the moment and unplanned trips always turns out to be the best :) trust me… :)

Second day of April also turned out to be memorable… I treated my BFF Linnzi (Pre-birthday thing) out to dinner at Lugang… And all I can say… Xiao Long Bao is just love… It just is… Whenever I’m out with my BFF, it’s never ending kwentohan about life, love, being a work in progress and all that cheezzy stuff that Linz and I are made of… Hahaha :) and it’s over good food coz we love to eat as in LOVE to the highest level… Walang tatalo sa sobrang TAKAW namin :D at di pa natapos diyan… Our night went on until I got home, it was over text and Linz texted me how she noticed the transformation of my eyes from the first time we met till now… Her exact words… “I remember looking at your fb pics from the time I met you to the present. There’s really a shift in disposition. Your eyes used to be sad but since last December, been noticing that you look happier. Then you said you’re excited to meet someone. I think he may be near already.” then I just cried, it just strucked me to the point that I had a hard time breathing… Yung tipong di ka na maka hinga sa sobrang busog! Hahaha! I kid! Haha! But seriously… I was overwhelmed with Linnzis text… I don’t know… But somehow I’m really blessed with friends who are good with words… The kind of friends who will make you cry with words of wisdom, inspirational whatevers, and the never ending support… I remembered last August one photographer took a snapshot of me and commented about my eyes how it looks so sad he even joked and told me “huwag kang mag alala, mahal ka nun” hahaha!! My friend Michelle and I just laughed at his statement! I was reminded of that after reading Linnzis text. It’s funny actually how Linnzi and I became friends… We met thru my cousin who is her ex boyfriend… Everytime we tell people that.. They find it odd and we can see it in their faces then tawa lang kami… :) from then on we just hit it off… Turned out we had lots of things in common, from travel to music to artsy fartsy stuff :) I always tell her how God blessed me with the right amount and kind of people to guide me in my “migration” here in Manila :) and certainly Linz is one of them :) *sniff* I’m really blessed and everytime I think about it… Tears stream down my face… Tears of joy of course :)

It’s five days from today till I turn a year older… And it was one hell of a joyride! From my transfer here in Manila which was the hardest decision I ever made in my entire life, during my transition period I really had a hard time adjusting as there were a lot of factors that got affected… Looking back… My friend Marnielle who is based here just laughed at how I cried during those times and everytime he invites me to hang out, he finds it funny that I’m back home in CDO because I got homesick for the hundredth time… To now… Now that I finally found my place… No more confusions… And I think I was sent here for a reason… Well it was really to help out in the family business, that’s really why I got transferred here in Manila but it could also be that maybe the person I’m meant to be with is here waiting for me :)… There could be a lot of reasons why God placed me here, but what’s important is my happiness, I thought I already had it back home, never expected the turn around of events… I remember having a conversation with my close friend Mae, she told me back then that CDO was the safest decision, safest place I can be. I was in a state of confusion for a time and I really didn’t know where I should be… Now I’m proud and happy to say that I am now where I should be and it’s mission accomplished :)

Ok… So I just saw something on the television… But I’m gonna keep it to myself… Ako lang nakakaintindi… May sariling mundo kasi! Hahaha! Advance happy birthday kiddo! :) wooohooo! Excited to turn 27… :)

After a While by Veronica A. Shoffstall

After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul.

And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises.

And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child.

And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans, and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.

So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to leave you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure;
You really are strong, you really do have worth.
And you learn, and you learn.
With every goodbye you learn.

- from catjuan.com